Not liking her doesn’t have to make you unhappy

There are times that I really dislike my new bride. Just little things she does that annoy me. Or thought processes she has or certain personality traits. Sometimes just the tone of her voice when she’s around certain people. But I’ve realized that even if I don’t like her at times that doesn’t mean weContinue reading “Not liking her doesn’t have to make you unhappy”

Laugh at OCD

I just remembered a technique that an old OCD therapist of mine recommended. She said not only should you drop the thought when you can but you can actually make fun of the thought or the force that’s making you think it. What she meant was when you have a thought you can try toContinue reading “Laugh at OCD”

Hack: hope for triggers

So I was trying to do some ERP by looking at old photos and videos of B. And surprisingly it was becoming more and more difficult for me to get triggered! And I realized that part of the reason that I get triggered so easily is because I’m scared of her saying something that willContinue reading “Hack: hope for triggers”

Repentance

I just wrote about how when I got back together with B I went to a prayer room and it basically convinced me God wanted me to dive in and marry her. Well, fast forward 2 months and things have gotten hard again and I’ve started questioning things again. She just says things that shutContinue reading “Repentance”