I just wrote about how when I got back together with B I went to a prayer room and it basically convinced me God wanted me to dive in and marry her. Well, fast forward 2 months and things have gotten hard again and I’ve started questioning things again. She just says things that shutContinue reading “Repentance”
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God says, pray instead of overthinking
A couple months ago I got back together with B and I went to a prayer room to gain the confidence to propose. I had been obsessing like I had been when we were first dating. I had told B and some others that the fear of proposing felt like I was on the edgeContinue reading “God says, pray instead of overthinking”
God comes through
I woke up this morning just feeling so regretful I had told B the things I did last night. When she didn’t understand that part in the movie I basically said “If you don’t know that, how can I trust you understand anything? I know you’re trying to become a spiritual director, but if IContinue reading “God comes through”
Why didn’t you get that?
I was doing okay today. We planned out our mornings so we each did our quiet time separately, did some exercise, watched a sermon together and really had a good discussion about a scripture from the sermon. We watched a show a friend had suggested to us (Virgin River) and I made relentless fun ofContinue reading “Why didn’t you get that?”
Is it supposed to be this hard?
Within half an hour of getting to her house I stepped out of the bathroom and told her, “I just don’t understand why sometimes everything you say from the moment I see you just feels discordant to me.” I just didn’t like the way she told me about her day. The way she presented herContinue reading “Is it supposed to be this hard?”
Disappointing New Years
New Years eve was the day after she asked me to give her a final answer. They were also celebrating her roommate’s engagement at B’s house. B was helping to throw that party. I went over there feeling pretty good. Although I knew that when her other friends were around, I often got triggered. MyContinue reading “Disappointing New Years”
A Disappointing Proposal
After two years of me volleying back and forth, my girlfriend said “by December 30th, you need to give me a final decision.” We had an awesome time in the mountains with my family for Christmas (I managed to let a few things like how she sounded dumb when talking to others not take controlContinue reading “A Disappointing Proposal”