Tomorrow I propose to B.
But every morning this week I wake up with negative thoughts of her. Things she said or the way she said it that bothers me.
I have to choose joy. I focus on things I like and it usually helps. I focus on enjoying my breath and it feels better.
When I have a negative attitude it seems to gather all other negative thoughts to it.
When I have a positive attitude, it’s not quite as contagious but it seems to not think of the negative thoughts, or not be affected by them.
Each morning I have to choose Joy. Otherwise I’ll obsess about the negative.
R, 2-12-21
Relationship-OCD 